Over the weekend my husband and I decided to be "adventurous" (something I felt like we hadn't been in a while), and take a day trip to Santa Barbara with our little Xiomara. "I just want to jump in the car, not over think it, and just go. As long as we have an extra pair of clothes and a few diapers, we're good", I told him as we successfully attempted to be in the car by 11 AM.
So off we went. On our quick 1 hour 30 minute road trip we did what most people do- have epic conversations about life. For the past couple years he's been trying his hardest to support my writing, constantly asking me when I'm going to jump back into blogging or writing short stories. Sadly, and I hope to never hear these words come out of my mouth again, I would respond, "I just don't feel creative". This was way before the birth of our now 7 month old daughter too, so I can't use being a new mom as an excuse. But now here I am, a mother. How do I want her to see me? Of course I want her to reflect back at her adolescence and think that I was a good mom. But I don't want her to remember me for my cooking (yes, I do), or that I kept the house clean (hey, I take pride in that), or that I always dropped her off at school on time (yikes, I realllly need to get my license!). I want her to look up to me and see what it means to be passionate about something. Sports, fashion, design, reading... don't matter!
Before she came into this world my husband and I would always talk about how we would never accept her not being passionate about something. And one of the best ways we can make sure that happens is by staying true to ourselves. I've read it, and heard this a million times, "Your life changes SO much when you have kids." "Say goodbye to this & that...".
You all know what I'm talking about, right? I guess that's why I feel it's time to get back to this blogging thing. I want to journal our experiences as parents, remind myself to always stay creative, and just ramble about this new adventure!
Feels good to be back!
And just for fun, here's a photo taken of us last year a month a half before we met our little Xio.